I WAS BORN in a small rural farming community in Vauxhall, Alberta Canada on May 29.
I lived in a very modest house with my 7 brothers and sisters and our parents. Life was simple and hard working, but always filled with love and a lot of joy. Each of my siblings had a passion for something, and mine was music. Church was my initial introduction to music and singing, and it became my greatest passion. Music connected me to my faith, it inspired me, it was my joy and comfort as a child. I loved participating in singing so much that I got my first lead in a school musical theatre production at 10. I love to sing but I also love the process of creating a song. I began writing my own songs when I was 12 yrs. old. This opened up so many possibilities within myself now that I could express emotions from this place. The song writing experience continues to grow in me. It stretches and settles me.
So the journey began as I started taking piano lessons 10 years ago. I had always loved the piano and I took lessons briefly as a child. A lot of my songs come from just sitting down at the piano and playing. As I play around and just relax, song ideas will flow. This is a place of peace for me to just sit down and play.
Now my writing includes not only lyrics, but melody. It’s big and it’s challenging, even daunting, but when it hits and begins to flow, I am gifted with a piece of myself that is so very true and pure. It’s like giving birth to a child. You patiently wait and when it’s time for the baby to come you have this beautiful creation that is a part of you, but also something to share. Having this love and experience of creating my own music has been a true blessing in my life.
Early in my career, I worked with a producer who encouraged and urged me to write my own music and lyrics. That advice that he gave was so very sound and something that have and will continue to do. I am grateful that he encouraged me to make the music my own.
While music is my great passion, it has also tested me in the most challenging of ways. It has taught me perseverance, faith, humility, courage and resilience. There have been many big ups and downs, which is a great metaphor for life.
What has remained constant, is my love for making music. I wake up each day with new ideas, wanting to create new sounds and to continue to deepen in my individuality as a musician. The music continues to reveal new aspects of myself which I welcome and use to grow. Some aspects are challenging and some profound, none are wrong, and somehow all of these awarenesses that come forward as I write manifest into a song that I can sing to myself and share with others. Little bits of truth that I hope will somehow shed some love.
I am forever evolving and changing. I am far from perfect and I make many mistakes, but I learn from them. Sometimes I even get a good song out of the wisdom that my error has gifted me. Every day I seem to wake up as someone slightly new, a more realized version of myself. Isn’t it amazing and intriguing and so beautiful to think that every day we are new?
My music is evolving along side of me, and I see the clarity of that growth in my lyrics. The stories that come forward in my songs are becoming more personal and fluid. The most simple of experiences carry so much inner meaning for me.
I wrote about New York and I. I wrote about how much I love this city and how it makes me feel so alive. I wrote how a little black dress can bring so many memories flooding through my mind just by putting it on. I even wrote about how people may want to perceive that everything is perfect in their lives, when the reality is not remotely close. The new reality is that we are all perfectly imperfect. I wrote about betrayal in relationships, but also the fun and excitement of just having my girls and me. I wrote about being strong even in the face of adversity, even when people may try to pull you down, to remember that you are a warrior. I wrote about the simplicity of pure love and how simple it can truly be. I even wrote about being able to just say what you want to say and just be who you are with no apology.
All of these new songs tell a story, but once they are released they become the listeners and they are for you. You can interpret them to mean what ever speaks to your heart. They become your songs.
Music has taught me that you can choose to be anything or to be anyone that you want to be. You are beautiful, you are precious, and oh so worthy of expressing your truth. Make a difference, stand out in the crowd and decide what you will be remembered for.
From the young girl who lived on a farm till she was 18 and then moved to the city of “angels”. Anything is possible if you just believe.